I Love You, do u love me?

15th February 2011, 12.51am

I cant believe that one day has passed just like that, perhaps time tend to walk slower when you are sad, and walk 10x faster when you are super duper mega ultra happy, ok, i sounded a bit cheesy now, but, guess what? Something has just happened in my life, and it is way more dramatic and cheesier than what one can think of..

Your voice clip has been playing and playing while i am writing this, and my tears were dropping no matter how many times I have listened to it.. Now that i know how essential a song is in triggering girls' tear glands, and most important, you have chosen the right song.

Just when i entered the house, i heard your voice, was really really suprised, for a moment i think i was blank, then immediately i saw roses on the table, a laptop and candles, and many many pictures of ours. You were talking, with background music "two is better than one" playing, many many tear drops, i quickly wipe away, just so that they wont block my eye-sight, everything at that moment was like a dream, like they gonna disappear at anytime soon, i wouldn't want to miss a thing. Realising that I've missed some of the words that you said, I quickly rewind the voice clip, everything starts to play again, you started to talk again, just that this time with some background noises behind, I didnt realise that Skype was on and you were shouting for me! *blurr..

We dated on Skype, you wore a shirt with jeans, white shirt with black colour stripes, just like the last time i saw you, difference is that i could hug you last time, and this time you are 50o98765 miles away from me.

Thank you darling, really really thank you. Thanks for everything. Thanks for the song (my Valentine's Day gift, and one more is coming!)

Dear dear, your voice is kinda different in the voice clip, compared to when you are on the phone, i dunno why, but it makes me miss u a lot a lot.. wish I can see you now, hold you, hug you and kiss you..

You have given me a lot more than what I've asked for, and I'm really really grateful, I Love You, Dear. In returns, i promise that i will be a more considerate girlfriend, give you as much freedom as I can, will not doubt you anymore, and be a more more supportive girlfriend.

Thanks again for everything, I Love You, forever.

想

想家了。。

想马来西亚了。。

想。。。

想很多东西。。 搞到自己不开心。。。

昨天叩妈妈，忍着眼泪不让它流，最终却还是在挂电话后大哭一场，在英国哭得最惨的一次。。

还以为自己会像别人说的一样，会忙着适应生活而不会想家，看来这不适合套用在我身上。。

妈妈顾着我的学业，担心我会因为无法适应气候所以考不好，会要我买Heater， 会要我早睡。。

还好上次测验的分数不错，否则我一定内疚到死，然后会哭得更惨。。。

妈妈我会用功读书的，我会紧记自己在这里的任务，我一定会把成绩考好，让家人为我而感到骄傲的。heater 已经买了，现在只要我看到它，我就会记得那是用妈妈辛苦赚的血汗钱而买的，当我用它时，房间不止是满满的温暖，更是有妈妈和家人的爱与关怀。。

原来即使身边有的是一班朋友，寂寞与孤独的感觉仍然可以侵蚀你的心。。

好久不见

什么时候开始，我再也不能第一时间让你知道我的一切了。。

喜怒哀乐。。

我再也不能无时无刻拿起电话就拨你的号码， 除了需要在那组号码前加06， 我还需要在当地时间加7个小时，还要考虑你是否在上课，睡觉，玩乐。。

你曾说不喜欢我每次打来就匆匆地把电话挂了，因为每次挂电话以后你都会变得沉默了。。所以那次以后我都尽量让我们畅谈，不要两分钟就挂电话。。 直到现在， 不管我是否去计较那几分钟，你已不一定有那个时间给我了。。

也许是我太滥用电话了，一点小事就非得吵醒你不可，所以才会搞到自己真的不开心的时候不能好好向你倾诉。。

二十一岁了，总不能什么事情都向人吐苦水吧，既然以前我可以把一切都收在心里，现在更应该没有问题。。所以，好久不见，隐藏。

我会再一次学习自己解决问题，又或者，学习怎么不开心的自己开心起来。。 以前没有你的生活，又再次让我体验了。我不想要依赖你，不想把自己开心的理由都放在你的身上，在这里遇到的任何问题，我都会尝试自己解决。。

就算受伤了，也会让自己偷偷地好起来。。

我们的生活步伐再也不一样了，是否意味着我的心情感受再也不能随时传达给你啊？

远方的朋友出了意外，她的手，脚和背部都被火烧伤了，在深切治疗部已经好一段时间，试问这段期间的她，又有谁可以依靠呢。。朋友们是可以通过facebook，email连络她，问候她，但是真正了解她的痛的人又有多少呢。。就连我也是现在才知道，好惭愧。。希望她早日康复，并靠着科技的发达早日恢复美丽的脸孔。。

Nottingham Goose Fair

Went to Nottingham Goose Fair!!!Don be mistaken by the name, there's no goose at all, not even a toy goose, nothing.

All that they have in this fair is like Malaysia's fun fair, where they have a lot of rides and food stalls, and of course, people.

I find it nothing much actually, the rides are similar to those that we have in Genting Theme Park or Cosmo's World,

except that the speed is a lot faster, the rounds that they spin per minut

e is a lot more and when they said "freak out", it really means the ride will freak you out.

So there I was, wondering around the fair, didnt try any rides, because the cheapest ride is 4 pounds per person per ride. RM20. CHEAPEST. Ok i'm not going to complain about how expensive Genting Theme Park ticket is liao. I always stand aside and see how does this ride go, how exciting it is. And I believe that if you were here, you might be very interested to try out this ride that ride.

This Goose Fair reminds me of the time when both of us went to Cosmo World in Times Square, we played a ride call DNA Mixer, it spins and spins and spins and end up your head also spins and spins and spins, trigger the vomitting centre and you threw out. On our first date. You were late. And you threw out. Tsk tsk. =b

Other than rides, there are lots of foods!! Basically is just doughnuts, chocolates, burger, sausages, and candies!

Tried something that I have never seen in Malaysia before, is called Churros, is something long crispy and sweet, like doughnuts but not.. hehe, let me show you the picture! Da lang!

You can choose to go with just sugar, cinnamon and sugar, chocolate sauce or lemon sauce. is 3 pounds for 6 for former 2, and 3.50 pounds for the latter two.

We tried both cinnamon and sugar and chocolate sauce. We prefer the cinnamon and sugar one!! Is really nice and something special ^^ i was a happy girl after eating that.

So that's all about Goose fair! Don let goose appears in your brain next time whenever people say it! Fyi, nobody knows where does the name "Goose Fair" come from.

letter to u

hello from nottingham!

r u still following my blog?

if yes, kindly type i love u for 9 times and send to my UK number asap, lol

i didnt want to be sedimental, but since i hav uploaded the pre departure pics, and my tears were about to flow down, might as well just give my feeling describe here:

i could see ur tears rolling in ur eye even before we were on our way to airport, we held our hand tightly, and u asked: do u feel as though we are travelling?

oh yea, with diff kind of feeling only..

i wish the road to airport could be way longer, so that i can spend more time with u..

i knew i looked like a mess, but still, as my supportive bf, even before i leave, u firmly told me that i looked the best among all.

just when i was busy writing the luggage tag, jia phan: wei wei, don forget u still have one more hand carry item.

me: ah? where?

jia phan: (turn chuan around, one luggage tag attaching to his belt).. lol..

this is the nice one, if and only if i could take u as my hand luggage, or i don mind, that u being my checked in baggage, but u are way overweight that i dunno how much are they going to charge me XD nvm, as long as i can hav u with me..

i was talking to noob gang, u hugged me from behind.

i miss the feeling.. very much..

also like the way u hug me when we take pic.. real sweet, warm and secured.. this is wat ted ted couldnt give..

among jpa scholars we have promised each other not to cry and spread the sadness, but still some of us cried.

not excluding me.

i wanted to hug u longer but i didnt allow myself to do that, i'm afraid that i wont let u go..

my tears were flowing and witnessed by jpa officers and a fren.

u were running to me, i was very touched deep down, i tried to smile to u, but the smile was the most ugly one.

i cant help crying everytime when i tried to imagine the situation where i have to wave to u, and that moment marks the start of long distance relationship.

and finally, 29th Aug i have experienced it and i swear, i will never be able to forget the situation, the feeling and everything.

i love you. i miss you. i have been repeating this for n times. but yea, this is the only thing that i wan you to know at anytime.

i'd walk a thousand miles, if i could just see you tonight

=)

昨天和irwin 出去走走了， 然后还和wen xin kok yuen 去喝茶。。 谈起为什么我们两个会一起出去， irwin 开玩笑地指着路边一只野狗说， 他驾车时在路上看见它，觉得很可怜， 所以就把它带着了。

回想之下，他的形容很真的蛮贴切的。 毕竟我真的是一只流浪在爱情路上的野狗。。

也许你不会知道，难过的时候， 我真的会很希望你会继续待在我身边。

我不喜欢一个人吃饭， 更不喜欢一个人独自对着电话流泪， 这样的感觉很孤单，仿佛被整个世界遗弃了一样。。对啊， 整个世界。即使只是你一人把我遗弃了， 因为你对我而言， 就是全世界。 好讨厌那种感觉。。 真的好讨厌。。

怎么办？面对你， 只有两个字可以形容，矛盾。

很爱恨爱你， 可是不想继续这样生活下去。 很不健康的感情状况。。 我们的爱情曾经是这么的美好， 如果哪天真的要分手，我希望在我们脑海里留下的都是那些很甜很幸福的回忆，而不是现阶段的争吵。。

分手和出国一样，没有什么值得高兴的，唯一欣慰的是，你可以重获自由。

我们开始得很不是时候吧，在你那五光十色的青春年华， 本来应该是自由的， 奔放的。 可是却因为身边的女朋友，所以很多事情都不能做， 更因为这个粘人如胶的女朋友， 让你不能和朋友常常出去。 甚至连出去，也要对我撒谎。辛苦你了。

不想再看着你这样下去，也许狠心分手是很好的办法， 可是我却很不舍得。。你知道吗， 昨天说好不要带电话在身边的，一个电话也不要带，一来可以让你找不到我，不过更重要的是，没有电话在身边我不用一直企盼传来的简讯是你的，拨电话来的人是你，那种失落感，很不好受。结果我还是把两个手机都带了，结果我还是让你找到了。明明是要怄气不让你知道我在哪里的， 却还是对你从实招来了。明明是不要见你的，却还是厚脸皮地叫你过来和我们一起喝茶。到最后还上了你的车，让你载我回家。。 我好没用哦。。

分手不成的原因是因为我心太软， 还是因为我太爱你啊？

昨天我对irwin 说，如果我们真的分手了，然后又有机会开始另一段感情，那我一定要确保男的爱我很多很多， 多过我爱他， 不然就要确保自己不会再投入100% 的感情， 否则我一定又会跌得一身伤。。我很希望，自己可以不要那么粘， 自己可以不要把爱情看得那么重， 那就不会发生今天这种事了。到底是哪个笨蛋创了“恋爱大过天”这句话？ 没有了这句话，我对爱情是否会存有保留？

也许， 和我在一起，是一种折磨吧。。毕竟， 爱情如同易碎的玻璃，握得太紧，只会让它在你手里破碎，也割伤了自己。 偏偏自己却怎么也不懂得拿捏力道， 伤了别人， 也伤了自己。。

你想要的， 我却不能够给你我全部，我能给的， 却又不是你想要拥有的， 我们不适合，也不想认输。 不想再约束了， 我们也不要再痛苦，希望下一次我们都会有更好的情路。

不要再顽固了， 是时候放手了。。 现在划上休止符，也许才是最完美的结局吧。我也该学着把对你的爱收起来了。用爱情换取你的自由， 我愿意。=）

出国的事情让你倍感压力了，对不起，不是故意的。是我把一切想得太戏剧化了，以为出国前就可以拥有你的所有， 让这两个月去弥补两年的空白。也许两年的空白， 是注定了没有彼此的出现吧， 所以不管我怎么费心地去填，也无济于事。我以为， 我真的以为， 离出国的日子越近， 我们会越珍惜对方， 可是不然。。。

PS: 如果， 我真的离开了你，我希望，你可以永远记得， 你牵我的手的感觉， 还有， 不要忘记， 有人永远爱着你，只是用错了方法。

双子座男孩

太多的关心=束缚
关心，爱，我都不想给了。。
因为我总会觉得给得既没意义，也总是很多余。。
我在处理感情方面还找不到很多的平衡点，甚至会觉得天秤正倾向不好的那端。。
我让你失去了自由，自尊，乐趣还有很多很多。。
如果把关心比喻成鸟笼，爱比喻成我这个主人，你比喻成鸟，
那我的关心把你关起来了，让你失去自由；
我的爱就如同主人把一只鸟握得越紧， 它就会窒息而死。。
所以，希望没有了他们，你可以找回属于自己的一片天空。。
哪一天， 我们真的再度成为两条平行的地平线时， 我会为你不在我的爱情里死去而感到高兴。。
我会学着， 不去期待， 不去在乎。。

双子座的男生热爱新鲜感， 喜欢自由。。
我不觉得自己可以让你在这段感情里维持你要的新鲜感，所以， 我不认为你会爱我到永远，典型的双子座男生。

两个月半

是我倒数离开的日子。。
今天接到了你妈妈打来的电话。。
心里不禁有莫名的难过。。
对不起。。
也许， 因为得到了你家人的认同， 我会以为我们之间不再有风浪了， 却忽略了其他的。。
然后我就开始不珍惜我们能够在一起的时间了。。
纵使自己即将要离开两年了， 可是我们能相处的时间加起来， 应该会只少过一个月吧？
我一直告诉自己， 你很忙， 除了要读书，还要工作， 然后还要拨一点时间给朋友。。
为了给你多一点自由， 我总会想办法让自己很忙很忙， 那我就不会那么常打扰你了。。
只是， 是我太粘你了吗？
就算是和朋友在一起， 我依然会很想念你，很想立刻见到你， 很想立即回家打电话给你聊天。。
我想， 我对你的依赖真的是太强了。。
越接近离开的日子，我越想和你去好多好多地方，可是我深知， 这些地方， 大概都没办法去了。。
因为你的时间，好难好难才分配给我。。
就算我拿到了那时间， 我也会担心回家后的你是否会被骂。。
我相信，你也为这种情况烦恼吧。。
对不起。。
因为我， 害你常常被骂。。
然后不只在家里受气， 还要因为我发飙而受苦。。
辛苦你了。。
身为一个女朋友应该是你的避风港才对，可是我却成了另一个给你脸色看的人。。
对不起。。 原谅我好吗？
都是我不懂得体谅的缘故。。
既然我们在未来的两年里， 都不能常常见面了， 那我想， 我也不应为了你把时间留给朋友而感到不悦， 就当作是上天让我开始慢慢习惯吧！
一来， 我可以不对你发脾气，二来， 也可以练习两年没有你在身边陪伴的日子。。
我开始学着习惯吧。。

Life @ UNMC

is 3.21am now..
i'm supposed to be sleeping.. but, let me blog about this first k..
overflowing of sadness and memories that i had here are flashing in my head..
i will be free in about 12 hours time, but i do not feel happy or excited at the moment, instead i will sad for leaving this campus, the University of Nottingham Malaysia Campus that will make my friends jealous about..
it was 2008, and when i first step in here, i was totally in love with the environment here, the lake, the fountain, the greenery scenes here.. and i swear "i must enrol here!"
i remember Dr.Billa did ask me why did i choose UNMC of all? Part of my answers was, i love the environment here!
Sept 2008, officially, i have became part of UNMC, i'm a pharmacy student here, i can always see the fountain, the ducks, the lake to the extent i don find they are beautiful anymore XD
first time teared in UNMC was regarding my finance problem, i got not enough fund to study here, and obviously parent couldnt afford it too.. i applied for JPA scholarship, and i have been waited and waited for few months, i cried because i was too worry that i will not be able to get thsi scolarship.. life is not entirely about $$, but u always cant live without $$, if not why do ppl go rob or steal right? don tell me they do this for the sake of FUN!
luckily, in the end, I GOT IT!!
since then life has become easier, and i stay off-campus accomodation in TTS5, is a bungalow with most of the furnitures from IKEA, got to know some nice housemates, we cooked together and crazy together over maggots =(
thanks to the big big garden we had in this bungalow, we always organise some gathering, makan-makan party and birthday celebrations ^^ it was real fun!
Year 1 life was mainly lab, lab and lab.. lol
just when i blinked my eyes for few times, it is Year 2 now..
YEAR 2..
stay on campus, hav a toiletmate who loves to sing a lot, called herself Lee Chong Wei's sister, since her surname is Lee too =.=" lol..
eat crappy SA food at least 5 times a week >.<
less gathering back then.. due to stress + no garden
blink for one more time, i'm sitting right in front of my lappy now and typing about this memory flashback like an old lady recalling back the old times.. Is already Year 2 Sem 2 now..
lol..
will be checking out at 12noon, then exam at 2pm, then like a bird out of the cage, at 4pm, we will be set free, and the next time i step back here will be around June to collect my result.
i will miss every single little things here in UNMC..
expecially the lecturers..
U guys are awesome!
treat us like adult, hav fun with us, facebook with us, party with us.. lol..
Thank u for everything, i have learnt a lot from u all and i really enjoyed chatting with u all..
Prof Doughty, love the sense of humour that u hav, and speak to us like adult, and being so supportive over PharmNotts, u rock!
Dr.Morris, i was so suprised that u can actually remember my name! and next time whenever i see lab spec, i will definately think of u, lol..
Dr.Ting, thanks for all the advice and everything that u hav taught me.. sorry cause i flunk phys pharm =(
Dr.Billa, don forget to feed ur "horse"! lol.. and i will not forget the name of "cili padi" that u gave me XD
Mr.Wong, thanks for being so father-y, u r like the father of UNMC, lol.. in a good way, no worries ^^
Dr.Wiart, thanks for all the funny jokes!
Dr.Ong, my tutor, i hope u will like ur new job in Singapore, hope that's what u wan and that u will get satisfaction from there, when i go Sg u must bring me around k! =b
Dr.Khoo, er.. er.. don be nervous, i'm sure u can teach well too =D
Dr. Tung, u r so cute!! lol, don get mixed up with where vee mae and i stay k, lol..
Dr.Lim, i always dreamt abt u, don ask me why.. lol.. i hav to say u r such a charming lecturer, lol, and u taught us really really well..
Thank u all.. i will not forget u all.. miss u all a lot.. <3

to my dear fren..

i'm sure u wont be reading this..
but gal, it is sad to see u like that..
living without any aims, or should i say, the only aim u have is to wish for a fatal accident to come by, everyday, just so u can see her very soon..
u need her, we need u too..
u still have us, although that's nothing much we can do, nor we can do anything just to get ur beloved mum back..
but as a fren, we always pray hard for u, hoping that u will stay strong, it hurts to see u like that, living ur life with negative thoughts...
it wasnt us, mayb thats y we cant 100% fully understand ur feeling, and who knows one day if this happen to us *touch wood!*, we would behave even worse than how u r now..
sadness can spread.. seeing u like this wont make any of us feel good..
we hated to see u like this, hurt yourself and hav all kinds of negative thoughts..
we are praying hard for u, we wish that we could offer any single little help, pls don shut us away from u..

分开？一起？

在Austin Chase,
呆了大概6个小时，哈哈。。
花了钱喝一杯咖啡，一个三文治， 总算没有白花。。
因为这好像是我这么多个周末里， 唯一有做功课的一天。。
哈哈。。
也是我这整个星期里的第一天， 认真做功课。。
不好意思啦。。
因为某些原因，我堕落了，有。。 至少5天吧？
今天终于下定决心， 把pre-workshop ques 做完了 ^^
很满意自己的“成就”， 所以买了一片蛋糕奖赏自己 =b
原价RM 12.90,机缘巧合下，我只花了RM 7.90， 多谢有人舍弃的RM5 voucher, 这世界是怎么了? 就这么有钱吗??
朋友知道我会去英国的时候，第一个反应总是“那他怎么办?”
干嘛问我?
问他啊。。
我呢。。。 就想要继续隔着一片片海洋牵着他的手，连着他的心。。
朋友也总会问“为什么不要暂时分开，然后待回来后再续前缘啊?那至少两年内你们可以有自己的一片天空， 会找到更适合的对象也说不定?如果有缘的话再牵手也不迟啊。。”
话是这么说没错，只是，我个人认为，两年的时间可以考验的东西很多，既然这是不能避免的， 那我干嘛还要故意把我们之间拆散，多增一个考验呢？
“有缘分牵手，就不要轻易放手”
也许若干年后的我回想起，会觉得很傻，只是，趁我对爱情还有希望及热情的时候，我希望自己是付出了所有的那个 =D

“你绝对是全世界最后一个我想失去的人”

久违了。。
好久都没写下自己的心情， 直到今天突然的心血来潮， 才发现自己连usename都忘了，FML..

距离离开的日子， 大概还有四个月的时间， 然后我们的爱情就得跨越两年时空， 10588 公里 的距离。。
然而，我们能熬过去吗？
过去一直以为自己对爱情是那么的坚贞不渝， 可是经历过了这么多事情， 才发现自己也不外乎像其他人一样， 那么的经不起诱惑， 那么的无法捍卫自己的爱情。。
也发现， 原来同时喜欢两个人不是不可能的事情。。
我现在能体会你的感受了， 当时那种“和你在一起-却想着另一个人-快要疯掉”，“喜欢他-可是爱你”的感觉， 我全都能体会了。。
我差点， 真的是差点， 就越轨了。。
只是， 我很庆幸， 自己有一个那么棒的男朋友 ， 给了我足够的空间去处理这件事情，让我悬崖勒马。。
甚至是到最后我还收到了这么一封短讯：Darling, i love you. No matter wat happens. I might be mad if u did wrongly. But i'll still accept it.
眼泪都快飚出来了。。
谢谢你， 真的很谢谢你。。

身边有一对情侣分手了， 你问我：有没有觉得很庆幸我们还在一起？
“有，你绝对是全世界最后一个我想失去的人。。”

所以， 不管那730天有多难熬，不管那1058800里有多远，我选择相信2012年的7月或8 月， 你会在机场对我唱“永远的第一天” ^^， 而我， 依然是那个还深深爱着你的我。。

暧昧

“暧昧让人变得贪心。。
直到等待失去意义。。”

也许还未等到结果，我已经开始在担惊受怕了。。
对不起，她的出现，我们之间所发生的，真的不是我想说忘就忘。。
至今依然是心里的一个结。。
也许不是你给不够安全感，而是再多的安全感也不足以让我安心？
对不起。。
连我自己也没想到，曾经的一切会让我这么介怀。。
曾经，我对自己说过，不管和你在一起的这条路有多难走，我都会咬紧牙关撑下去。。
可是，现在我却选择放弃。。
我真的开始觉得累了。。
为自己每天和你的吵架而觉得累。。
不为都是她。。
很讨厌她的名字总是围着我们的生活绕。。
很讨厌自己总是把以前的事情挂在嘴边。。
如果要停止这一切，大概就是把我们都带回正轨吧。。

暧昧只是让你成为大家的话题的道具。。
大家都会关心你们，什么时候才会成为真正的恋人。。

暧昧只是让彼此在结束后感叹 “浪费时间” 的一种关系。。
不仅当不成情侣，还错过了一些人。。

暧昧只是给男生多一点时间去留恋一段感情的理由。。
既不想放手，也不愿意给承诺。。

暧昧只是让我们继续沉睡在梦里的一个烂借口。。
其实，暧昧一点都不好玩。。
曾几何时，暧昧是一种潮流了？
身边的朋友都在暧昧的阶段，总结起来，大家的感受都不外乎是 “委屈”。。

分手快一年了，暧昧也快一年了。。
我和你唯一的结局大概就是为这段恋人未满的感情划上休止符吧。。

这段时间，谢谢所有朋友们的关心。。
很抱歉，我们没有像你们预期的那样，成为恋人。。

*谢谢你，我最好的哥哥。。我爱你。。也许是我不够好，也许是她比我适合你，所以阻止了你向前踏一步。。不过没关系，我依然会很疼你这个哥哥！ =)

弟弟，姐姐

几年前，我的生命了出现了唯一一个弟弟。。
干弟弟。。
so called kai sai lou ^^
对于这个弟弟，我很执著，一个就是一个。。
曾经有人要称我当他的干姐姐，可是， 被我拒绝了。。
我因此骂他 “你是我唯一一个弟弟耶，可是你呢？这么多个干姐姐！”
距离我上次见这个干弟弟，已经是快要一年了。。
上次是在我的生日派对上，那时的他，已经渐渐地在改变了。。
今天再次见到他，他的头发长了，眼镜不再是snoopy的牌子，而是play boy 的，背后还有了刺青。。
他不再是以前那个爱笑，傻傻的小毛头了。。
有那么一霎那，望着他，我突然觉得眼前的这个男孩，让我觉得很陌生。。
也许是因为他的外在，也许是因为我再也不了解他了。。
唯一庆幸的是，虽然这么久没有见到彼此了，可是我们依然很close。。
虽说是他的姐姐，也真的比他年长2 岁，可是在我扭计不愿意下车的时候，他硬是把我抱起来。。
他很廋，可是却能够把43kg的我抱起来。。
他的外在改变让我很难相信真的是单纯的想要改变。。
可是他却坚持的说，他内心依然没有变。。
结果，在吃夜宵的时候。。
“慧慧，你真的觉得我变了？”
“你不是觉得没有吗？”
“有。。。”
然后，改变他的故事开始从他嘴里说出来了。。
这是我今晚的意外收获。。
我以为，错过了这么多，是已经没有办法再去了解了。。
经历过的事情，教会了你的事情，也许就只是感情的投资永远不会等于报酬。。
所以才会有今天什么都不在乎的你。。
你真的开心吗？
今天的你真的是你最满意的你？
对不起，，看见你这样，是我忽略了我的弟弟，也会有了解到世间冷暖的一天，而且还是这么快。。
一直让那个长不大的你住在我的心里，直到你长大了，我只来得及看见长大后的你，过程中我一一缺席。。
留在你衣服上的泪水，是我的忏悔。。
也是看见你，心痛得难过的泪。。。
我希望，以前的那个你，会死而复生。。
期待那一天。。

Delicious @ mid valley

yahoo!!
finally, i can try the food at Delicious ^^
thanks to mummy..
we actually have been walking round round and round but still cant decide what to take for tea time..
upon my request, mummy agreed to bring me to Delicious ^^
mummy is the best! muackzzz~~~
hehe..
sad la, even my mummy has tried the food here before but i havent >.< thought of ordering the tea time set, but after browsing the menu didnt see any..
so, mummy wants a short latte (RM 8.90)

and i wanted the melting pot chocolate with marshmallow (RM8.90)..
yummy.. ^^

both the drinks were served with 2 pieces of almond biscotti..
as for dessert, we ordered the blackberry apple crumble vanilla ice-cream (RM12.90).

i have tried apple crumble at other places before but this is the first time i try it with blackberry..
kinda special, more sour taste but less cinnamon..
i think i prefer the original apple crumble =b
we also ordered the garlic bread (RM6.90)!

the serving was really special, cause they serve the 3 pieces of garlic bread in a dim sum container..
so, western + chinese ??
anyway, mummy likes the garlic bread a lot!
overall, the food was good but..
a bit pricey >.<
hee.. once again, thanks mummy! ^^

i hate my life

cant believe that i'm complaining..
first time in my life..
previously in a-level although i found that i cant cope also i will just cry..
but never say i hate my life..
first time in my life..
is not that i cant cope with my study..
i can..
but..
just sick of the daily routine..
wake up, go to uni, lectures, go home, cook, bath, study, sleep..
and if i didnt study, i felt guilty..
week 9 is a busy week..
i wish to get over it asap..
tuesday after lab i will be having 2 reports waiting for me..
wednesday will be having a workshop, and so i have to study on monday and tuesday..
after wednesday's workshop i will be having a stack of courseworks to do..
friday will be having a lab session, and so i have to prepare myself, ie. have to study..
friday after lab i will be having another report waiting for me..
and so.. i have all together 3 reports waiting for me..
some more, i'm supposed to study.. cause exam is coming soon..
and yet.. i have so many things to do..
reports are like never ending..
exam is coming soon..
all these make me so easily get mad..
so easily fat mang zhang..
and the worst thing that i have ever done is..
i released it on somebody else..
wat to do..
i wan to go cycling..
thought that like that i can release a bit of stress..
but..
couldnt make it..
and now that the pressure are accumulating..
the volcano is either goign to erupt bit by bit..
or..
just suddenly erupt like that..
oh crap..
i hate my life..

Fish & Co.

wow.. i think that we made a right decision to dine here..
the fish is so fresh and, most importantly, does not have the "fishy" smell, hehe..
as the name imply, they sell fish, and some other seafood, like prawn, mussels and etc..
for most of the food, they serve it in a pan, cute ho?
i like their serviettes, very nice ^^
lets see what we've order,

this is the most famous fish and chip, can choose to serve with fries or chips, and i have chosen rice. very nice a~~~~ the rice is ok ok only though.. but it taste much better if eat together with the chilies they serve..

and chuan has chosen the seafood marinara, not so nice leh.. the sauce is a bit tasteless >.<>

as for the drink, we have chosen the.. hehe.. sorry ha.. i have forgotten the name.. but the portion is so~~big that two of us didnt manage to finish it and have to da-bao.. should share with 3 people?

at the end of the meal, the shop give us mint candy leh, they are so sweet!!

guess what did chuan say?

"i felt that people walking outside has miss so much things, they do not know how to walk in here and enjoy the delicious food they serve, cause they think this is not famous and the food is also not that tasty"

yea, agree with you, ha, luckily i bring you here! say thank u, faster!

....

我好像又回到了伪装的日子。。
这里没有真正能谈心的朋友。。
又或者， 我不想在他们面前表现出最真实的自己。。
就好像a level，被 swee fong 说我很爱自己隐藏。。
不爱告诉朋友。。
收埋收埋。。
我哭了。。
就在挂电话后。。
很想找人谈， 可是不知道找谁。。
第一个朋友：哦， 我只是想说声嗨而已。。
第二个朋友：无人接听。。
第三个朋友：无人接听。。
（已经是凌晨一点钟了，理所当然的）
第四个朋友：哦。。我只是想说声嗨而已。。
（然后和他拉扯了十分钟， 依然没有谈到我不开心，一边流泪一边告诉他冷笑话，他笑得很开心， 甚至一度怀疑我是否在讲梦话。。就算声音哽咽他也听不出来。。当然咯。。 他不曾听过。。这么夜了， 他大概以为我是伤风吧。。这样也好，我的心情没这么差了。。只是为自己的伪装感到多一分的不可思议）
两年的时空， 6500公里的距离，我们的爱情， 无法穿越。。
我才发现，那是我的心结。。。
“如果有一天，你决定了把心交给一个人，记要交给一个不会让你心碎的人，因为破碎的心是无法痊愈的，就像刀疤一样会留下永远的痛。。”
如果有一天，心已经破碎了，却再也收不回来，那，不是更痛？
愿你开心，你会回头看我吗？而我，还在原地吗？
我会在原地，也许是一直都会在， 不过，你不会回头。。

白色情人节

白色情人节是西方情人节的续集。。
西方情人节是女生送巧克力给心仪的男生以表达爱意， 而男生若也希望这女生的话，就会在白色情人节这天送白色糖果给她。。
三月十四日， 白色情人节。。
我们都穿白色， 哈哈。。
吃着你给的白色糖果， 心中满满的都是幸福的感觉 ^^
第一次和家人以外逛ikea, 感觉真的很特别， 一边看着showroom 一边构想我们心中的家园， 要如何布置， 孩子们的房间要采用哪种颜色， 我们的床要怎样， 沙发要舒服的， 要超级懒惰的。。。等。。 那一刻， 除了幸福， 还添加了 *期待*
我们还买了ikea 的热狗和curry puff，你很不浪漫哦。。
我只不过是去拿纸巾给你， 你竟然把我那 “save the best for the last ”的热狗大口大口，用少过20秒的时间， 就把他们给解决掉! 啊!!
这是一个简单的庆祝，没有高级餐厅的午餐晚餐， 没有昂贵不重用的玫瑰花， 只有象征他对我的心的白色糖果，还有他对我的重视， 谢谢哦。。 ^^

Tenji Japanese Buffet @ Solaris Mon't Kiara, supper!

Tenji Japanese Buffet is having their promotion now! again!
Tenji sent me the email on 1st march, 10.10am, after reading the email, i called and reserve for a table for 10! on 7th march, for supper! ^^
This is the first time i got to reserve a table!
Previous time kept calling, kept texting, the only reply i got is "sorry, tenji is fully booked" =(
nvm, this time i got it!
i've got u! hehe..

wei wei: hello, khai rong a, wan go eat buffet not? this saturday, RM39.90, at tenji, i need 8 more ppl
khai rong: ok, no problem, i will help u to recruit ppl
wa.. i like khai rong!

chuan: hello yin yien a.. wan go eat buffet or not?
yin yien: ha!! buffet a??? when?? i wan!!!
chuan: oh, this saturday, 9.30pm
yin yien: ha.. i not sure wo..
chuan: sure? got haegen dazs wo.. got oyster wo.. got chocolate fountain wo..
yin yien: wa!!!!!! i wan~~~~~ ok ok, i ask my mum first, i text u later

*power of haegen dazs*

and, the 10 persons were...
khai rong (PR no.1), keat hong(PR no.2), shu yi, chan yan, keat hong, yin yien, alvin, shee jau, chuan and wei wei ^^

7.30pm meet at chs..
chuan arrived there at 7.40pm..
going round and round around bus stop-> esso -> chs -> chicken rice -> bus stop -> ...
khai rong: oi! y going round and round? i'm just behind u eh!

8.15pm reach!!! yoho! tenji~~~
walking around at cold storage, they all kept saying :eh.. shouldnt have walked here la.. Looking at the food make me more hungry only..


night view.. romantic ho?

can u see the twin tower?

the 7 dwarfs.. XD

9.30pm!!!
"miss wei wei, reservation number is 30707"
"for ten persons is it?"
"yes"

q-ing up to pay the bill..
a waiter approached and ask: miss, may i know how many ppl?
wei wei: ten
waiter: oh, u may enter now.. follow this way pls.. i will send u the bill later
i feel like VIP now...
yeah! can start makan!!
girls are like that.. ppl start with appetiser, they start with dessert

oysters~~

tiramisu ^^ my favourite!

wide selections of tea for u to choose, there are rose, blueberry, lavendar, mix fruits... etc

sashimi~~~~ very fresh wei..

chuan wish to sit outside, but.. too bad la =b

we can see genting from here ^^

^^
overall, we ate around n- plates of unagi, n-plates of lamb and n beef, n-scoops of haegen dazs ice cream ^^ ,guys ate quite a lot of oysters.. and sashimi, and tempura prawn!!! and, chocolate coated fruit skewers~~~~~~~~~~~~~

ah~~~~ tenji....

by eating 4 scoops of ice cream, and 2 plates of unagi, and 2 pieces of oysters,u have already covered the amount u paid! is really worthy!!!!! RM39.90 only eh!!! (excluding tax)

hurry up! get a table and eat like never before!

reservation number: 1700-80-1818

Weekday Lunch Promotion* (Monday - Friday) 11.30am - 4.00pm
Promotion Period : 2nd March - 31st March 2009
Normal Price Now
RM77.00 …………………………………….RM49.90
Daily Supper Promotion* (Monday - Sunday) 9.30pm - 12.30am
Promotion Period : 7th March - 31st March 2009
Normal Price Now
RM88.00……………………………………..RM39.90