两个月半

是我倒数离开的日子。。
今天接到了你妈妈打来的电话。。
心里不禁有莫名的难过。。
对不起。。
也许， 因为得到了你家人的认同， 我会以为我们之间不再有风浪了， 却忽略了其他的。。
然后我就开始不珍惜我们能够在一起的时间了。。
纵使自己即将要离开两年了， 可是我们能相处的时间加起来， 应该会只少过一个月吧？
我一直告诉自己， 你很忙， 除了要读书，还要工作， 然后还要拨一点时间给朋友。。
为了给你多一点自由， 我总会想办法让自己很忙很忙， 那我就不会那么常打扰你了。。
只是， 是我太粘你了吗？
就算是和朋友在一起， 我依然会很想念你，很想立刻见到你， 很想立即回家打电话给你聊天。。
我想， 我对你的依赖真的是太强了。。
越接近离开的日子，我越想和你去好多好多地方，可是我深知， 这些地方， 大概都没办法去了。。
因为你的时间，好难好难才分配给我。。
就算我拿到了那时间， 我也会担心回家后的你是否会被骂。。
我相信，你也为这种情况烦恼吧。。
对不起。。
因为我， 害你常常被骂。。
然后不只在家里受气， 还要因为我发飙而受苦。。
辛苦你了。。
身为一个女朋友应该是你的避风港才对，可是我却成了另一个给你脸色看的人。。
对不起。。 原谅我好吗？
都是我不懂得体谅的缘故。。
既然我们在未来的两年里， 都不能常常见面了， 那我想， 我也不应为了你把时间留给朋友而感到不悦， 就当作是上天让我开始慢慢习惯吧！
一来， 我可以不对你发脾气，二来， 也可以练习两年没有你在身边陪伴的日子。。
我开始学着习惯吧。。

Life @ UNMC

is 3.21am now..
i'm supposed to be sleeping.. but, let me blog about this first k..
overflowing of sadness and memories that i had here are flashing in my head..
i will be free in about 12 hours time, but i do not feel happy or excited at the moment, instead i will sad for leaving this campus, the University of Nottingham Malaysia Campus that will make my friends jealous about..
it was 2008, and when i first step in here, i was totally in love with the environment here, the lake, the fountain, the greenery scenes here.. and i swear "i must enrol here!"
i remember Dr.Billa did ask me why did i choose UNMC of all? Part of my answers was, i love the environment here!
Sept 2008, officially, i have became part of UNMC, i'm a pharmacy student here, i can always see the fountain, the ducks, the lake to the extent i don find they are beautiful anymore XD
first time teared in UNMC was regarding my finance problem, i got not enough fund to study here, and obviously parent couldnt afford it too.. i applied for JPA scholarship, and i have been waited and waited for few months, i cried because i was too worry that i will not be able to get thsi scolarship.. life is not entirely about $$, but u always cant live without $$, if not why do ppl go rob or steal right? don tell me they do this for the sake of FUN!
luckily, in the end, I GOT IT!!
since then life has become easier, and i stay off-campus accomodation in TTS5, is a bungalow with most of the furnitures from IKEA, got to know some nice housemates, we cooked together and crazy together over maggots =(
thanks to the big big garden we had in this bungalow, we always organise some gathering, makan-makan party and birthday celebrations ^^ it was real fun!
Year 1 life was mainly lab, lab and lab.. lol
just when i blinked my eyes for few times, it is Year 2 now..
YEAR 2..
stay on campus, hav a toiletmate who loves to sing a lot, called herself Lee Chong Wei's sister, since her surname is Lee too =.=" lol..
eat crappy SA food at least 5 times a week >.<
less gathering back then.. due to stress + no garden
blink for one more time, i'm sitting right in front of my lappy now and typing about this memory flashback like an old lady recalling back the old times.. Is already Year 2 Sem 2 now..
lol..
will be checking out at 12noon, then exam at 2pm, then like a bird out of the cage, at 4pm, we will be set free, and the next time i step back here will be around June to collect my result.
i will miss every single little things here in UNMC..
expecially the lecturers..
U guys are awesome!
treat us like adult, hav fun with us, facebook with us, party with us.. lol..
Thank u for everything, i have learnt a lot from u all and i really enjoyed chatting with u all..
Prof Doughty, love the sense of humour that u hav, and speak to us like adult, and being so supportive over PharmNotts, u rock!
Dr.Morris, i was so suprised that u can actually remember my name! and next time whenever i see lab spec, i will definately think of u, lol..
Dr.Ting, thanks for all the advice and everything that u hav taught me.. sorry cause i flunk phys pharm =(
Dr.Billa, don forget to feed ur "horse"! lol.. and i will not forget the name of "cili padi" that u gave me XD
Mr.Wong, thanks for being so father-y, u r like the father of UNMC, lol.. in a good way, no worries ^^
Dr.Wiart, thanks for all the funny jokes!
Dr.Ong, my tutor, i hope u will like ur new job in Singapore, hope that's what u wan and that u will get satisfaction from there, when i go Sg u must bring me around k! =b
Dr.Khoo, er.. er.. don be nervous, i'm sure u can teach well too =D
Dr. Tung, u r so cute!! lol, don get mixed up with where vee mae and i stay k, lol..
Dr.Lim, i always dreamt abt u, don ask me why.. lol.. i hav to say u r such a charming lecturer, lol, and u taught us really really well..
Thank u all.. i will not forget u all.. miss u all a lot.. <3

to my dear fren..

i'm sure u wont be reading this..
but gal, it is sad to see u like that..
living without any aims, or should i say, the only aim u have is to wish for a fatal accident to come by, everyday, just so u can see her very soon..
u need her, we need u too..
u still have us, although that's nothing much we can do, nor we can do anything just to get ur beloved mum back..
but as a fren, we always pray hard for u, hoping that u will stay strong, it hurts to see u like that, living ur life with negative thoughts...
it wasnt us, mayb thats y we cant 100% fully understand ur feeling, and who knows one day if this happen to us *touch wood!*, we would behave even worse than how u r now..
sadness can spread.. seeing u like this wont make any of us feel good..
we hated to see u like this, hurt yourself and hav all kinds of negative thoughts..
we are praying hard for u, we wish that we could offer any single little help, pls don shut us away from u..